6 Old Family System Triggered by same World System 022317
(letting go of Stockholm Syndrome)
As I left behind the Intel site following Patrick’s censuring guidance for my intention not fitting in their “niche’, and following his guidance to switch to Operation Disclosure “Spiritual” category instead, my whole system settled down from trying too hard to make myself fit in where I was not appropriate. 5 days later I am realizing how much extra energy it was taking away from my disciplines, so I am relieved now seeing how, the more they discussed money, the more my old family sick-loyalty had clicked into place again.
Intel, however is the most clear site, along with enerchi’s site, so as I worked hard to keep up with all the latest news about the evil doer stuff from top to bottom, it all triggered me too, as if I have been fighting hard again to keep myself safe from my similar family of origin treachery. Tonight I can feel all the same feelings of fear, and crisis as I did when I was regularly interrogated, raped, blamed, and murdered all over again as if I were right back there as a sex slave hostage getting abused, murdered and set up in their intricate, and profound child-sacrifice conspiracy.
I have let in a new crack of possible awareness of my Family, actually being part of the cult, and the same with ex-wife 1, ex wife 2, and latest 12 years-ago ex-girlfriend, so this leaves me to believe that any connection they had may, or may not be as important, except as a clue I have been gradually creating a flashback, or abreaction situation, as if what happened was, actually seeming to be happening all over again, except more consuming, because it involves the Whole Crazy World at this time.
Before Laurie texted her daily check in, and while I was waiting for Patrick to post my writing today on Operation Disclosure, and Neal not responding to plans tomorrow evening, and enerchi not posting the Keen item we discussed via email, these things altogether combined with 2 evil movies today cause me to write my way clear of not trusting I am safe. Enerchi, and Patrick are close too, so with their changes, and slow responses together, I had begun to imagine they had, negatively discussed my stuff, that I have been very honest about.
We sexually abused victims learned that to share about sex abuse with others, that hadn’t healed their own, that when these others don’t affirm us, it feels like getting sexually abused all over again. My Holy Spirit connection has allowed me to enjoy some emotional safety, and guidance to offer my experiences, so others may identify, and would be a Kind Loving service at the rate we are all awakening to sex-abuse being, so much more dominant than ever before.
In spite of all this new awareness, others are not apprised of how surrendering, repenting and forgiveness works like the first 3 steps of recovery to name it, claim it, and dump it, so most are still trying to fix the World, and remain, so positive they can’t do the realer work inside, and switch their allegiance from creation to Creator Love, instead. These evil traits of the collective are the, very imbedded mind-control issues, that keep us in so much denial, that the Mafia keeps us busy working for ‘their’ agenda to kill us, and take everything from us before, during, and after our collective demise.
Now that I am putting all these aspects together in one writing, no wonder I’m feeling like I did in my family of origin, because these are all the cognitive dissonant things that reflect what is happening to destroy anyone, like I was in in my family, and I am ‘now’ in the dumbed down social-norm killer World. I spoke up in my family with the truth of what was going on, and I have been speaking the truth again, lately more than ever before. I was only 3 years old the first NDE, so Imagine how I could clearly speak of the difference between Heaven, and back down to evil Earth. 11 years ago I adopted Asceticism, prayers, meditations, and Guided-writing to live as a Monk, and have become a Sannyasin. I enjoy 5 hour daily meditations and can speak so clearly, that most know, not what I am saying, except to exclaim, that my creative writing is a work of art.
From everything I went through as a child, I realize I can have low self-esteem enough, not to really appreciate my level of advanced Consciousness, so I am Wondering tonight if it might be time for me to withdraw from Laurie, Neal, Ascension-newbie web sites, and non-recovering sex abuse victims any more. With this Burning Bush experience it seems a good time for me to comfortably redesign my safer emphasis in a new commitment to stop sharing, so much Spiritual Sovereignty in a World gone completely madd, and the evil infrastructure falling apart at the seams.
About the Author
I “Love” to Admit it 11/22/16
I “Love" to admit it, but I have been captivated by the constant Blackmail battering of this Child-sacrificing malevolent World, so that I ‘want’ to surrender to Holy Spirit, by turning within, as a new humble priority. Sex-slavery robbed me of my soul, as a child, yet once I realized everything difficult, that happens enhances my devotion to turn even, more within ONENESS Spirit Conscience forgiveness nurturing, instead.
I fought like Hell to work, very hard for Money to, barely survive, but after a few years of meditation, and forgiveness prayers to Holy Spirit, to do the difficult forgiveness of others, as myself, more money came to me from Spirit, right through other benevolent Sources, than I ever, even knew about, before surrender. I “Love” to admit that Money doesn’t come from hard work, or social-norm Blackmail, but comes from Source, just like everything else, we need to ‘thrive’, instead of, ‘barely survive’ in addiction to this Child-sacrificing malevolent World.
After losing connection to my, own Conscience, I have become a kinder feeling empath, and a constant seeming mistaken threat to others suffering, just like me, before I sat down, closed my eyes, and meditated my suffering ass off. Like kindness comes from within Spirit devotion, so too, does being able to feel again, without letting those ephemeral duties control my reactive behaviors any more. Money, kindness, and feelings come from turning within, to ask for help to forgive all my captors that, still suffer much tortuous regret for forcing me, to do things out of fear, that no Child would, ordinarily want to do.
After annihilation traumas of the lower fourth dimensional ‘murky unkind’, everything outside triggered my reaction to live in the past swamp, ‘as if’, so, as I became more addicted to the outside Illusion of, more fear piled up onto, more traumas, I “Love” to admit that, with a gift of desperation, I became a, very willing candidate to surrender to something else, besides this unholy smelling foul-World of sulfur-predator crap. Now I see, all suffering evidence, as a gift from ONENESS to have compassion, and Mercy for, all who, still haven’t turned within to receive Money out of nowhere, and become a kinder feeling person, instead.
I am more sensitive to Blackmail than I have, ever realized, and even that’s a gift now, because I used to blame myself, ‘as if’, all evil was my fault, but NOTHING can, ever be further from the Truth. I was a beautiful innocent Child, and I, still am, inside, no matter what I used to think, and no matter what constant Blackmail, still wants to make me feel that lost-soul way. Blackmail is a constant battering here in Karmic Hologram miming-mirror Earth Paradigm, and who knew; before I turned within, where enlightening compassion makes me feel like a ‘kind kid’ with pocket treasures full of Sparkling Golden innocent-kaleidoscope perceptions again?
When I surrendered to Holy Spirit, Money was the furthest thing from my new mind of Delight, and I, certainly was convinced, that I would, never become a kinder feeling empath, ever again. Getting old had become a ‘given’, but turning within has made, even gettin-gold a ‘variable’ out of my getting younger now, every time Holy Spirit welcomes me inside, where eternal youth commands, all kinder feeling empathic Mountain Top kindergarteners.
Money, Holy Spirit, my soul, kinder feeling empath, forgiveness, my Conscience, compassion, Mercy, my Inner Child Spirit, eternal youth, the willingness to face outside Blackmail with a new motive to serve, with the, very “Love” that I have to admit, all these Wonderful gifts from within nurturing, that replaces any more outside need for what, best can be defined as needy-ransom soul-selling Blackmail=Burnout.
Inner-Child Spirit Safe-Home, within
author Pine Cone
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